Tuesday, March 8, 2011

a prayer from a broken heart

today, i received in my inbox a devotional from RelevantMagazine.com.

[ps: thank you my darling husband for signing me up months ago]

Coming from RM, it's usually something theological. I've never been a theological Christian. I don't feel the need to sit around the table and discuss why Jesus may or may not like homosexuals, or drink wine, or where he ministered most. I find these conversations...well...dull. and you always get with people who think differently than you, and reality is: no one is changing their mind b/c of what you (or they) have said. it's pointless conversation.

I'm a full believer that if i'm going to sit around the table and talk about Jesus, I'm going to talk about what is He doing in your life. What is it in your life that makes you think/feel/believe this about Jesus? THAT is the extent of my theological conversations.

Rabbit trail.

Today's devotional is about Luke 7:36-50.

The woman anoints Jesus. Many scholars believe that she was anointing him for death. others believe it was her way of worship.

I believe it was both.

This woman, who those around the table knew as a whore, entered into the house with ONE purpose.

Her LOVE for the Lord.

many scholars believe that Jesus and this woman (who i think is mentioned as Mary in the other gospels), had an affair and produced an offspring.

those scholars also drink kool-aid.

This woman was not attracted to the MAN. she was attracted to the LORD. Elohim. El Shaddai. (PLEASE EXCUSE MY SPELLING. I've never taken a greek/arabic class, and so i'm going on pronunciations...doesn't work so well...lol).

She was in AWE of His Majesty!

There was a time where i felt that love and desire for Him. lately, i haven't. and i want it back!

This is not a time for being reserved. this is not a time for being ashamed!

Lord, you've created me for such a time as this! help me to be BOLD for YOUR Name! Let people talk about me....let them spread their lies and gossip. Set me apart. anoint me! Lord, i break this alabaster jar at your feet, and wash it with my tears! You are my first love! my only true love!

tame my tongue so that it only spreads encouragement! let everything else fall wayside, and only encouragement come forward!

heal my heart, and make it clean. bring peace where there is none.

purify me, O Lord! let your love shine through!

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