Fantasy

This is the second year where i am playing fantasy football. Last year I played with some people from church, and this year, I am tagging along with some co-workers.

I didn't think I would have enough time, but so far so good. I get on when Matty is napping and do what I need to do. So far, I rank in second place, which is pretty amazing! I never do well in this type of thing, so I'm super surprised!

other than working, i am trying to play catch up with some cleaning since coming back from the beach. we spent some time with my family in emerald isle, NC. Beautiful! but to go on vacation with a 5 and a half month old when you're still nursing...SUCKS. But i got out some, which was much needed!

slow day, not much to say!

Beachin'

We just got back from a beautiful trip to the beach. Emerald Isle, North Carolina. It was the most beautiful time to go. It rained a little bit the first day we were there, and got a little cloudy the day we left, but every other day was blue skies, mid 80s to low 90s, NO humidity, and bright sunny skies.

We lathered up with some SPF 50, and braved the sun for a little bit. Anyone who knows me knows if I'm exposed to the sun for longer than 30 seconds, I'm a lobster.

I only got a little sunburned on my legs the day before we left.

Matthew did really good. Well, better than expected. I started to get frustrated by Thursday because I spent more time inside wishing to go outside than I did...doing anything else. It is really hard to enjoy the "great outdoors" when you have a nursing newborn. While he is a FANTASTIC baby, THE LAST THING this momma wants is sand in places sand should not be...and having a child eating and rubbing....ugggggggggggh. PASS. So I would wait til after he ate. Well, then he would get sleepy, so I'd have to rock him to sleep. Then I wasn't about to leave him in the house when me or Jacob weren't in there. And there's no way I was going to enjoy myself in taking the monitor down to the beach; I'd be worried I couldn't hear it and so I would have it up to my ear the whole time.

If I was going to be miserable, I'd rather be miserable inside where the AC rained supreme and the food was plentiful.

The other great thing about vacation:

It COMPLETELY interrupted Matty's sleep patterns. He went from sleeping through the night to...maybe a few hours here and there...and if I was lucky, MAYBE to 4 am? Most of the time, I'd have to nurse him and PRAY he went back to sleep; for the most part, he did.

The CRAZY thing: Jacob slept through him screaming even when Matty was 6 inches from Jacob's head. HOW in the WORLD?!?!

Matthew is such a GREAT kid. We started him on rice cereal. He took to it pretty well, but since we got home, not so much. We will have to try again tomorrow...and by "we," I mean Jacob, because I'm working until 9:30. :o)

Have fun, babe!!

sanctus real

I have been hearing this song and I couldn't hear who the artist was. But the less I heard it the more I had it stuck in my head. Today on the radio, they were talking about the leader of the band and how he came to write this song. i nearly started to cry!

He had just come home from a tour, and his wife, who was feeling lonely, said he needed to be more of a spiritual leader in their household.

they repaired their marriage, and now are expecting a baby. while there's more of a story with the baby, i need to go and check on mine, so maybe the baby story will come later...if i can remember.

anyway, the song is called, "Lead Me."

"I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're in independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone"