*you know you're pregnant when you can walk outside in 30 degree weather in a t-shirt and jeans and be comfortable...
*i've never been to a chiropractor before. i am so glad i have been now...
*my sister has the swine flu! please pray for her and that her kids do not get it!
*i'm really glad we didn't go over to their house yesterday...that could've been really bad...
*i really want to eat! but why can't i stand to look at food???
Monday, October 19, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
thinking...
i find that when i think, i get into trouble. i think about all the bad stuff. i think about how to deal with it. i then become disgruntled with my life and situations.
not that thinking is bad, mind you. it's good! but i don't just think...i DWELL.
and for some reason, my brain is practically made to dwell on the bad stuff....
like, for example:
my job. i'm 3 months pregnant, and i got to work every day and put on an apron. i was REALLY hoping to be at a different job by the time i got pregnant, but, that didn't happen. i really don't want to be 4 months pregnant and working in the cafe, but it's looking like i'm not goign to have much of a choice.
my home. i really would love to be able to paint my baby's nursery, but our landlord doesn't want us to hang pictures, let alone, PAINT.
my husband. i LOVE him. i really do! i have the utmost respect for him. he provides for me and our child, and he loves us unconditionally. yet, the one thing i think about is not that he loves us, or that he's faithful to me and to God, or not even all the hard work he does around the house. what i think about: why can't he do the dishes? it's the ONE thing i have asked him to help me out with. and with my back pain, the LAST thing i want to do is work 8.5 hours, all day on my feet, come home, make dinner, and then have to wash and dry all the dishes...
i don't want our child brought into a home where i am constantly down, or always putting my husband down, or having nothing but negative thoughts.
Lord, transform my mind to be more like you. Filter my thoughts so that they glorify You and Your creation. Transform my thinking!
earlier i mentioned back pain. i don't know why, or if it's even pregnancy related, but i have had the WORST back pain in my lower right side. i can't explain it...but i can't move when it's hurting....i tried calling the doctors office last friday, but they were closed a half hour early. oh well....this will be the last time i use their services! :o)
not that thinking is bad, mind you. it's good! but i don't just think...i DWELL.
and for some reason, my brain is practically made to dwell on the bad stuff....
like, for example:
my job. i'm 3 months pregnant, and i got to work every day and put on an apron. i was REALLY hoping to be at a different job by the time i got pregnant, but, that didn't happen. i really don't want to be 4 months pregnant and working in the cafe, but it's looking like i'm not goign to have much of a choice.
my home. i really would love to be able to paint my baby's nursery, but our landlord doesn't want us to hang pictures, let alone, PAINT.
my husband. i LOVE him. i really do! i have the utmost respect for him. he provides for me and our child, and he loves us unconditionally. yet, the one thing i think about is not that he loves us, or that he's faithful to me and to God, or not even all the hard work he does around the house. what i think about: why can't he do the dishes? it's the ONE thing i have asked him to help me out with. and with my back pain, the LAST thing i want to do is work 8.5 hours, all day on my feet, come home, make dinner, and then have to wash and dry all the dishes...
i don't want our child brought into a home where i am constantly down, or always putting my husband down, or having nothing but negative thoughts.
Lord, transform my mind to be more like you. Filter my thoughts so that they glorify You and Your creation. Transform my thinking!
earlier i mentioned back pain. i don't know why, or if it's even pregnancy related, but i have had the WORST back pain in my lower right side. i can't explain it...but i can't move when it's hurting....i tried calling the doctors office last friday, but they were closed a half hour early. oh well....this will be the last time i use their services! :o)
Friday, October 2, 2009
latest
This weekend marks the beginning of my 12th week of pregnancy. soo excited! i've had less and less morning sickness (PRAISE YOU JESUS!), and i've had lots and lots more energy...which isn't really saying a lot, b/c i had ZERO before, but i am feeling more energized.
the only problem i am facing now:
I found out my 4th week that i have a cycst on my right ovaries. this hasn't been a problem until this week, when i suspect it's starting to "dissolve" itself....which is the most painful thing ever.
i have never had a cycst before, but from those who have, i've learned that as they "pop" you see a little trail of bleeding. however, i've not seen that. so i'm not sure if it's dissolving or not (i love the term "dissolving"....that's how the doctor referred to it going away...).
so i'm in lots of pain. weird thing is...it's in my back.
and i love the sympathy i get from work. i can't bend down. i can't pick up things. i can't move very well.
"oh you're such a wimp."
"how's this for wimp? Stick a fork three inches into your soft back tissue, twist it 10 times. leave it there. go about your daily routine....oh, and imagine having a stomach flu...but you can't throw up, because you work around food. try it. then see how ya feel. oh and you can't take any medication b/c you're allergic to it all..."
that's what i'm dealing with. i love being told to "suck it up and deal...wimp" when i have tears in my eyes from the pain.
the only problem i am facing now:
I found out my 4th week that i have a cycst on my right ovaries. this hasn't been a problem until this week, when i suspect it's starting to "dissolve" itself....which is the most painful thing ever.
i have never had a cycst before, but from those who have, i've learned that as they "pop" you see a little trail of bleeding. however, i've not seen that. so i'm not sure if it's dissolving or not (i love the term "dissolving"....that's how the doctor referred to it going away...).
so i'm in lots of pain. weird thing is...it's in my back.
and i love the sympathy i get from work. i can't bend down. i can't pick up things. i can't move very well.
"oh you're such a wimp."
"how's this for wimp? Stick a fork three inches into your soft back tissue, twist it 10 times. leave it there. go about your daily routine....oh, and imagine having a stomach flu...but you can't throw up, because you work around food. try it. then see how ya feel. oh and you can't take any medication b/c you're allergic to it all..."
that's what i'm dealing with. i love being told to "suck it up and deal...wimp" when i have tears in my eyes from the pain.
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